Damaged Goods...part 2

Anyways...continuing on....the accident happened at 7:15am in the morning. I was sleeping and didn't wake up until about 8:30am, I just couldn't get outta bed that morning, so I slept for another hour. Eventually I got up and went to work, it was probably around 11am when I got there. Work was shitty! I kept calling Billy's house and his cell phone and never got an answer....

At 1pm the receptionist came and said my dad was at the front lobby...I just didn't understand why he was there??? I got the the front doors and saw the OPP there with my dad, 2 OPP officers standing outside. The first thing I thought was something happened to someone on my dads side of the family or Billy got in trouble and went to jail...never did I even think something happened to Billy, NEVER! I got outside and the OPP officers were very professional and said to me "Erin, Billy was killed in an accident at 7:15am this morning. He was killed instantly and didn't suffer" After that I remeber almost collapsing and my dad catching me...the next several minutes were just a blur.

My dad came to get me and take me to his parents house, it was about a 25 min drive. I wasn't allowed to drive my Jeep so I had to leave it at work, my mom would get it later that night. As my dad was driving I called my mom at home and told her what happened. She broke down and made me come and see her before I went to Billy's. On the way there I called my best friend to tell her....there was no answer so I left a message to call me back because it was an "emergency" I've never used those words before...never called anything an emergency. She was out of town for business. At least 1000 miles away.

She called just as I got to my moms house, and said "so what's the big emergency?" I told her and she couldn't believe it...I don't remember a lot of what was said. I was in a lot of shock and don't remember a lot of all the little details. My friend then called everyone else to let them know what had happened, because there was no way I was going to be able to. I was just crying my eyes out when I got off the phone, I collapsed on the floor at one point. Then after talking with my mom for a few minutes and just being frantic, I had to get out to be with Billy's family. My dad drove me there.

Once I got to his house there were so many people there already, his friends and family had just gotten there or were arriving. I got in and walked in the door and hugged his family...everyone was asking how I was doing and I the same. His mom had said that when I called earlier that morning the OPP were there and didn't let them answer the phone...they wanted to get to me first. They didn't want me to do anything stupid like jump in my car and drive out there all upset. After the OPP left their house they came to get me at work.

The rest of the afternoon involved family and friends arriving and hugging, and crying and talking about what happened and talking about Billy and how amazing he was. We watched the 6 o'clock news to see what was said about the accident. The images were graphic and tears were falling all around. Everyone gathered in the house to watch the 5 min clip. It was about 9pm by the time I got back to my apartment, I grabbed a bunch of clothes and stuff and then my dad took me to my moms house. I stayed over for several days because I couldn't stay alone.

That night a friend came by to visit, and my aunts came over too. They were all very concerned about me. They just sat with me and talked and then watched the news again with me at 11:30pm. I had to see it again and I had to tape it. I just needed to know I had it available if I had needed to watch it again.

That night I couldn't sleep at all...I could barely even dry my eyes for a second. I think I slept for about 2 hours total that night....if that! Something that did comfort me a bit is this...The weekend before (just 4 days earlier) we had gotten some Taco Bell and he got a Chicken soft taco and spilled it over a hoodie he was wearing. He switched for another hoodie and left the dirty hoodie in my back seat. I remembered that it was still in my Jeep, I got the hoodie, stain and all, and slept with it in my arms. It still smelled like him so it was soothing...